Death By Love

The longing for you gnaws at my heartstrings as I sit here in the dark helplessly screaming your name, but it does not leave my lips for I am frozen with the fear of heartbreak. I know it has to come so I hang my head in defeat as love's demons sink their poison soaked teeth into me and I feel no pain only numbness. I wrap my scarred arms around my beaten body, as I hear a howl of pain pierce through the blackness. It takes me a moment to realize that the howl is drenched in my pain, in my misery, because it is my own cry for help finally free from the restraints of my frozen fear. I curse your name, knowing that you are the one who has left me here to die alone. I scream for someone to save me, for someone to take all the pain away. I hear footsteps slap the ground, racing towards me. I slowly rise to my bare feet to fall into my savior's arms. It's my angel of death. My murderer. It's you. I cringe in fear as you try to reach for me, you look at me with your thoughtful eyes for a moment. In that moment, I realized what made me fall in love. In that moment, you raised your hand with something metallic grasped inside it. In that moment, you walk away leaving a dagger in my heart as the light leaves my eyes.

The Double-Edged Sword

Love is seen as a blessing in the eyes of people fooled by the pictures painted by fairy tales and dreams. In fact as you begin to let your guard down to love's alluring spell you realize that it is a curse in disguise. You feel the gentle embrace mutate into the poisonous claws of anger sink themselves deep into your exposed heart. The angel that sang sweet notes becomes the demon that you cannot let go, the memory that cannot be erased. Love is a double-edged sword. It kills your loneliness and it kills the emptiness that can only be filled with the joy that those only touched by love would know. It also kills you. Once love's light is out your entire world is blacked out feeling the weight of the world crash down on your shoulders. Love brings you to life, but then it just takes it away in one swift motion that causes ever-lasting pain.